He doesn't want to leave his family. Which, I get. He could've just talked about it with me, instead of just not saying anything and letting me believe we were both finally getting out of all of this.
He didn't trust me enough to understand. Instead he just let me keep going on and on about our life together when he knew the whole time it wasn't gong to happen.
[ She knew this had to happen some day if they were ever going to be able to be friends again. Still, she's not sure which category she falls under for him. ]
I think I didn't know how to tell you that I wanted something different than you did. I knew it would hurt you.
I just couldn't pretend like everything was okay when it wasn't. Having to pretend like we didn't know what happened to Barb to her parents was eating me from the inside out. And I know you didn't want me to forget, but I just couldn't... I don't know. I felt like I couldn't be happy without her here.
I should have been more considerate and aware of your feelings. It wasn't fair of me to pretend like we didn't know what happened or to force you to move past it.
She was your best friend.
I just didn't like seeing you upset all the time and blaming yourself when it wasn't your fault.
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I'm sorry, Nance. There has to be a good reason at least?
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This is-
Deep?]
Maybe he was just scared to tell you? Still not the best reason but-
Sounds like he was afraid of hurting you.
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But if that's true, he didn't do me any favors. It still hurts he couldn't trust me enough to be honest.
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Jonathan Byers of all people wouldn't go out of his way to hurt Nancy Wheeler.]
You honestly think it was a trust issue and not the fact that he could have been terrified of disappointing you?
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Thats uh, not the greatest feeling to experience from someone you love.
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I'm sorry, Steve. You're right. I'm a total hypocrite.
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This conversation!]
You know it's always intrigued me what stupid things people will say or do in order to hurt the person they claim they love.
Just like it does when someone does something really stupid in order to not hurt the person they love.
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I think I didn't know how to tell you that I wanted something different than you did. I knew it would hurt you.
I didn't want to hurt you.
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I am sorry that I ended up hurting you anyway. I wish I had done things differently.
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I just couldn't pretend like everything was okay when it wasn't. Having to pretend like we didn't know what happened to Barb to her parents was eating me from the inside out. And I know you didn't want me to forget, but I just couldn't... I don't know. I felt like I couldn't be happy without her here.
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I should have been more considerate and aware of your feelings. It wasn't fair of me to pretend like we didn't know what happened or to force you to move past it.
She was your best friend.
I just didn't like seeing you upset all the time and blaming yourself when it wasn't your fault.
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It's not your fault, Nance. It's not....
It never was.
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Maybe someday I'll believe you.
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I respect that and I understand holding on to certain guilt.
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I was so angry and guilty for a while. I shouldn't have taken it out on you. Drunk or not.
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You were grieving.
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I'm still sorry. You didn't deserve that.
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